The singer and actress appeared to get emotional in the throwback clip of her singing the heartfelt ballad on TikTok
Selena Gomez is peeling back the layers of her music-making process.
On Monday, the singer and actress, 30, shared a raw TikTok video of herself singing “Lose You to Love Me” and playing the piano.
“This isn’t the greatest i know so i hope no one minds me turning the comments off for my head but this was the best, most sincere moments with lose you to love me,” she captioned the clip.
She also wrote in text over the video, “Making of… me getting to know myself.”
In the clip, Gomez is seen wearing a light gray jumper with her hair scraped back into a bun.
Toward the end of the video, she appears to get emotional as she stops singing and playing the keys. She then grimaces and exhales before saying, “Um,” before the clip ends.
In another TikTok shared by Gomez on Sunday, the Only Murders in the Building star is seen singing the song to a child who’s laying face down on the floor of a rehearsal studio. “Best audience,” Gomez wrote over the top of the video of the seemingly uninterested kid.
Gomez released the heartfelt ballad back in 2019. Appearing on On Air with Ryan Seacrest in October 2019, she said that she felt a “sense of relief” when she finally released the track.
my last album,” Gomez said in a statement on the day she released the single. “I thought it was important to share the music, as I know many can relate to the fact that the road to self-discovery generally comes through the scars in one’s life.”
“I want people to feel hope and to know you will come out the other side stronger and a better version of yourself,” she added.
In one verse of the track, Gomez seemingly alludes to her on-and-off relationship with ex-boyfriend Justin Bieber. “Set fire to my purpose and I let it burn,” she sings, a possible reference to Bieber’s 2015 album Purpose.
In a later verse, she also sings, “In two months you replaced us like it was easy.” After calling it quits again with Gomez in March 2018, the “Sorry” singer moved on quickly — and publicly — with his now-wife Hailey Bieber, proposing to the model just months later.
The pair then tied the knot in September 2018 in a New York City courthouse, before celebrating their marriage just over a year later with a larger ceremony in front of 154 family and friends at the Montage Palmetto Bluff in Bluffton, South Carolina.